At the end of my second pregnancy I suspended practicing whilst waiting for the imminent arrival of our second son. My work previous to this was picking up and getting busy. I was seeing more and more clients one on one and running three workshops at once… I was a busy mumma.
After our son was born and a few months had passed I felt the need to start thinking about getting back into my practice and what my work would look like. When Raffy turned 4 months old an opportunity arose that meant that I could open my own clinic. The rent was affordable – even cheaper than renting a room for a few days in someone elses clinic – and I had the whole place to myself with the added bonus of being able to rent the space out to other practitioners on the days I wasn’t there.
Although the initial outlay was high I believed that this venture was something that would be more than viable and I was in it for the long haul. I sat with this opportunity on more than a few occassions, I was excited and pumped about the possibility and when I tried to focus on other avenues of practice this space kept coming up time and time again. I felt I could do it, I was following my heart and my dream. I actually couldn’t think of doing anything else and I had already picked my colours, how the room would be set up…. everything! I believed that it was a sure thing and felt it was right.
There were a few draw backs though, the main one was that it was outside of my regular clients area and they would have to travel an extra 15 mins or so to see me. Being positive, I felt that even though it was a little further to travel, they would make the time if it was me they really needed to see.
‘Build it and they will come’…. or so I thought.
So I set up shop. I had help from my mum and I couldn’t have done it without my partner Harry. He was a gem and a true support of my vision. I borrowed money; something that was a little scary and a bit of a gamble, but I knew I would make it back and that the clinic would support me. I went shopping, I painted, laid floors and restored furniture in order to truly create a beautiful and supportive space that was mine and welcoming to clients.
In my first few weeks I had regular clients booking in and attending their sessions. I broke out all the marketing strategies I knew at the time; I had competitions, snail mail outs to regulars, Grab one tickets, free Chai and Chat days and more. I also had interested practitioners who came and who loved the space, told me they were starting and then would pull out at the last moment and other practitioners who just seemed a little odd with inappropriate gestures or marketing tactics.
During the following months I lost clients, lost loads of money and lost my motivation.
I didn’t know what was going on….
I started to notice on the days I would go to the clinic my energy would slump, I became a little paranoid, there were ‘neighbour’ issues and I just didn’t want to be there. For all the beauty I had created in that space, a space I felt truly reflected my taste…the energy was blah. I used my bowls to clear the space regularly and started reading all I could about Feng Shui, though only got more confused (I found out later that some Masters do this on purpose so that it forces you to study Feng Shui correctly). This went on for close to a year….
What was becoming more and more obvious was there was something not quite right with the space, but I couldn’t quite put my finger on what it was.
It was soooooo frustrating. It frustrated me so much that I started to look into Feng Shui courses and decided that was where I needed to focus and the road I needed to head down. I had always been drawn to the feeling and modality of working with the environment but my knowledge didn’t feel whole or concrete. So after approaching Harry with my plan and ‘sitting’ with the decision, I knew I needed to study and practice Feng Shui and booked my spot!
Subject after subject; I was working on my course and also trying to decipher and connect what I was learning, to what was going on in my clinic. I learnt how to facilitate deeper space clearing rituals and how to ‘read’ a site energetically though had to wait a few more months to learn the Flying Stars – most accurate of all Feng Shui schools – in order to apply it to my clinic. The Flying Star class and the end of my lease almost coincided and with much to-ing and fro-ing and with such relief I decided to shut shop when my lease ran out. By closing that door another door opened and not soon after I got a call from Tammy asking me to join her at Inspirational Health, which I jumped at.
The last few weeks of my stay in my clinic I got the answers I had been searching for…
I had completed my Flying Stars class and put the theory to the test for my half-emptied clinic.
The energy coming through the front door – which impacts on the success and viability of a business – was the #2 (sickness) star. This star is great for attracting sickness or clients who require healing on some level – which I obviously wanted being an Alternative Health Practitioner – though is very bad for any financial gain. It meant that the energy that was coming in the front door would not support my finances and made it difficult to generate an income. My teacher tells me this is quite a regular occurrence for Alternative Health Practitioners to be attracted to sites with either a 5 or 2 star – both sickness stars – at the front door. Their Heart is in the right place with wanting to assist people who are ill but financially they are screwed!
Yup! That was me!
I could have remedied the situation and activated the Wealth Star which would have helped balance the energy and support my business though I felt that the space had taught me what I needed to learn and it was time to move on. Feng Shui and the Flying Stars can assist us to understand so many aspects of ourselves as we are attracted to a site which resonates or pushes us to learn about ourselves and our many different layers.
Yes, I lost a heap of money by following my Heart BUT – and it is a big BUT – it is the biggest bit of this whole story – if it had not been for this space and my attraction to this site I may have not been pushed into studying Feng Shui. In some people’s view or in the eyes of the Business Gods my clinic and business failed, I would be considered a failure. Though I found this space to be a blessing. I now have a new skill, a new level of awareness which I revel in and want to delve more into.
I am so grateful for that lesson and even if it meant losing a heap of money and potential clients, it pushed me towards a sacred practice I am passionate about which not only can assist me, my family and my business to thrive but also also assist others in healing their space and their life in order to flourish.
I do not believe in the word failed or failure.
I believe that for every turn of events there are blessings and teachings.
The Universe works in mysterious ways and if it had to get me to a point where it pushed me onto my new, deepening and broadened Life Path, so be it.
What blessings have come to you forcefully?
Have you felt like you are a failure…. look again…. and see your blessings!
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